“You can’t take your old baggage with you into the New Consciousness!”
~ Jim Self, Mastering Alchemy
Well it’s 2012 and my first post for the year as I come up for air… You see I’ve been literally down “the rabbit hole” of home renovations for the last two months. I woke up January 1st inspired and energetic to do a “clean sweep” of my home and it morphed into painting every room, new flooring and definitely my life with new ”aha’s” !
Number one would be embracing and diving into the resistance I had to “doing the work”! As some of you know, I have been wanting to sell my home since my husband’s passing more than 3 years ago. It’s an 18 year old home and like everything needed some updates. Quite frankly I would have preferred someone else do the work! My husband was a true handyman and could build/fix anything. I didn’t think I was capable and you know what I’ve learned? I AM strong and powerful (and Hardward store staff rock)! There is always good guidance available. Just ask!
As well there is tremendous stuck energy in the dance of avoidance. Just do it. Like eating an elephant, I took one room at a time. All I could mentally/physically manage and that worked. Small baby steps and you will be finished sooner than you think with that daunting project! This is the essence of life coaching. You are one step away from living the life you dream. What small step can you take today to get started?
Now I’m also a recovering Capricorn who hates chaos so I allowed “ordered” chaos room by room as long as I had one room that had some semblance of order to make me feel sane. I often had to breathe through the mess knowing this too shall pass as I stepped on carpet tack strips in the night! You have to have chaos first for reordering and allowing new beauty in your life.
Of course the other metaphor here has been literally cleaning the cobwebs of my life, letting go, throwing out the past! As I scrubbed each wall for painting, vacuumed the copious spiderwebs that festoon my high ceilings, I had to go into nooks and crannies that haven’t been visited in a long while. Poking, scraping, cleaning old layers of dirt and sponge painting (Just say “No” to wallpaper!) Kind of like our dark aspects that don’t want to be brought to the light! The process can feel yucky and mucky but so fulfilling creating clear new space. Space to breathe and create again!
And carpet? Talk about sweeping the dirt under! Ahem, I could have grown a small garden on what lay beneath… I know Adamus Saint Germain has an exercise in his Interdimensional Living Course to lie down and “smell” the different layers of consciousness in the carpet. Yup, it’s all there – including new puppies! It doesn’t disappear and better to to become conscious and aware and not live in denial of what doo doo lies beneath…
So often in life we “decorate” and primp and paint over old layers of pain and crap that never gets examined. Kind of like putting pink icing on bullshit as the expression goes for “positive thinking”. Not that we have to “process’ for years. Just recognize, acknowledge and allow it to surface and release with love and compassion.
So yes, with home renovations you can pay professionals to do the work… But when it comes to that interior reno for yourself there is nobody home but you! And you ARE a the Master Carpenter in your own life!