Life itself is the most wonderful fairy tale.“ ~ Hans Christian Anderson
Do you remember the fairy tale by Hans Christian Anderson called The Princess and the Pea? It was a story about a Prince looking to marry a real Princess. And the way he was able to tell was that only a real Princess would be able to feel a pea sleeping on twenty mattresses! She was kept awake all night and woke up bruised!
Years ago, while facilitating A Course in Miracles study group, one of the members reminded us of this story. As you start awakening and working on your self, it seems that you become more and more sensitive and feel stuff that you would have never noticed before… ignorance IS bliss!
This story comes to mind again for me lately. Ow, damn those peas! I think I’ve cleared and integrated and balanced old energy within me and along comes another “pea” and it feels like a big bump under my skin… My big “aha” lately though is that it IS those areas of discomfort that are truly hiding the biggest gifts and energy release when I’m willing to truly look at them. Even when they hurt like hell!
While I like to think I’m a highly conscious, sensitive soul like the rest of you, I’ve become aware of areas of my life where I still have resistance! Some of these are simple stuff like cleaning my closet or fridge not to mention doing paperwork or filing! What I’ve been realizing though is that these areas I don’t want to look at, usually hold a huge amount of stuck energy. I know it’s a basic principle in Feng Shui, to clear clutter and you’ll release energy. (In coaching we use to say just go organize a drawer if you want to move some energy!)
However, going even deeper into these areas of resistance and tasks I DO NOT WANT to tackle, I’ve recognized that it’s more about the “feeling” around the job. There’s a feeling buried in along with the email or file I don’t want to deal with. These feelings can vary from feeling “stupid” about a poor choice (why DID I buy that) to a lousy business deal I lost money over the negotiation (SUCKER!)
It’s pretty typical I see in our society to avoid feeling bad in anyway. So we eat, watch TV, drink, shop and even work or work out to avoid “rolling in the deep”. We numb out, dumb out and check out…
These last few weeks I’ve come to realize that AS these feelings get triggered by an area of resistance, it is a blessed opportunity to dive right into the darkness and really, really feel it. Really feel shitty. Not run away. Stop. Feel. Breathe. Allow the feelings. Then the magic happens. As I breathe deeply I remember. I remember that there are no mistakes and I am not broken nor guilty nor fucked up. I am Powerful. I am God Also. I Am that I Am.
There’s pearls in them those peas. And peace.
Now where’s my tiara?